This has been without a doubt the hardest year I've ever faced.
Not that good things haven't happened in my life - I mean great things, and my favorite people in the world surround me always, and I truly love the life I live!
But that does not mean that I feel happy.
Isn't that ridiculous to admit?
And most people may not even know that I have struggled with this.
I guess I have just been weighed down with stress and - let's face it - I have been feeling sorry for myself.
That's a gigantic problem, and I have felt a huge need to feel the peace and joy that I felt just last year at this time.
Change is a killer for me..... oh how I wish I could adapt better and just go with the ebb and flow of life, but the hardest changes for me are the ones that have me sending my children off. And those are changes that will be occurring every other year for the next many many years!
Happily I am learning that it is not as painful as I thought it would be to have them go, since they do come back. And they are better and happier than they were before because they have had the chance to spread their wings and fly a bit.
I just know that God is a patient one.
I also know that He loves me.
I also know that He wants me to be happy.
As I was praying to know what I should work on this year I knew it was simple.....
*I might have to really concentrate and push negative thoughts away some days.
*I always have to listen to uplifting music, and I also choose to read scriptures and pray daily so that the spirit will fill me with peace and happiness.
*I also have a goal to go to bed at 10:30 and get up at 6:30 because I think getting enough sleep affects the way I feel every day
*I plan to stick with my healthy eating plan because I've never felt so great, but I do think that exercise every day would help me feel even better!!
The last day of our Christmas break I was able to go to the temple with my husband, and I was waiting for him as he was dressing (I always end up getting done way before him), so I was reading the scriptures. I just happened to open up to 2 Nephi 22:22-26 (which are actually very powerful verses - but also very pertinent to me at this time!)