I have never been good at expressing my feelings, so I hope this comes out right. We have been experiencing a financial trial for the past year. I won't go into any details, especially because our families already know about it. Lately I have felt like we are falling into a huge deep pit that we will never be able to climb back out of. I feel like this is a huge test of our faith. I know that righteous people experience trials and I know I have learned a lot already from this. Even through the hard times the Lord has dropped little blessings our way to help me see that His hand is always present in my life and that He is aware of my needs. The past few days I was being really negative and really questioning my own faith. I was starting to wonder if the Lord just lets things happen and doesn't really step in. If maybe people have bad things happen randomly rather than the Lord being a part of it. In my personal prayers the last few nights I have plead for the Lord to "help thou my unbelief". Yesterday the Lord practically shouted at me to help me see clearly. I turned on the radio (I listen to the BYU-I classical station) at the exact time the devotional was starting and they shared my favorite scripture: Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths". In my personal scripture study I experienced the same thing. It seemed every verse I read clearly showed that the Lord has experienced my trials with me, and there is a plan and the Lord has not forsaken me. My hope and faith have been renewed. I know things don't always turn out the way we might want them to, but I know that the Lord is on my side and He will make my burdens lighter.
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